• Episode skip 2 - A little talk about what happened and the future 06. august
    Aug 6 2024

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    Hello my dears!
    I am Johanna Draconis and I am going shortly into what is going on and why I’m on hiatus.
    First on social media. I am going to restructure things and have plans and my silly brain decided that means I can’t post anything in the meantime.
    Second - I have been still dealing with torture - as I seriously underestimated how much it would slow down the closer I got to the early years.
    Then everything slowed more and more down - which wasn’t surprising given that my life got more and more on fire - and it got really hard to work and I genuinely thought I had burn out.

    But then I got those CPTSD nightmares after last episode and after some looking I found the reason: A gigantic cluster trauma - the biggest and strongest I have ever encountered.
    Which is unsurprising given it is strongly connected to torture and early in life. How did I overlook it? Well turns out it was hidden within the torture and with that removal it got active. A sort of really bad parting gift.
    Now will I win? Yes - 99% sure.I have the skill, knowledge and tools, but I really have to focus on it and myself now - and this work especially hits too close to home. I am optimistic I can get back to work very soon.

    I hope you are all well

    Take care and stay safe!

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  • Episode Skip - Sign of life and reminder for 4th of july
    Jul 3 2024

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    Hello my dears!
    I am Johanna Draconis and I wanted to give this sign of life.Life is kind of on fire right now - thanks to the weather almost also literally - and I need to focus on that. Things should be back to normal soon - and I’m looking forward to that.

    But since it’s the 4th of July and I know many in my audience will likely suffer, I also wanted to remind that it is okay on some days to have a blackout day. To remove just everything one can from the timetable.
    So that only the absolute necessary and wanted remains. To spoil oneself on such a day and practice self care. Healing isn’t just about the progress we make but also the damage we prevent. And sometimes all we can focus on is limiting the damage we take.
    The more rested, relaxed, happy and in good company you are - the less severe the symptoms and likely the trigger are. Or in short: Be kind to yourself.

    I hope to see you again soon

    Take care and stay safe

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  • Ep176 - Why do I feel so lonely? (hole inside / loneliness)
    May 22 2024

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    In this episode we will talk about being lonely/loneliness and the hole inside that causes all of it. There is a loneliness epidemic that keeps spreading and cause a lot of suffering. But why do we all feel so lonely? What is causing this feeling? And what can we do about it?
    We first get into lonely/alone, then the hole inside, then how it escalates, then how loneliness spreads and then how to stop it.

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    Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode176

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  • Ep175 - Abuse Language (Psychological abuse)
    Apr 29 2024

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    In this episode we will talk about abuse language - the language that is designed to weaken the victim and used as a weapon by the abuser to maintain and expand their control over the victim. Abuse language is hard to explain if you don’t know the mechanics.
    We first talk about deniability, then teaching the language, then the slow game and then planting the seeds.

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    9 mins
  • Ep174 - Flashbacks
    Apr 13 2024

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    In this episode we will talk about flashbacks - the most known symptom of PTSD - and wrongly assumed to be a central requirement for having any form of PTSD.
    Flashbacks are often referred to something along the lines of “having flashbacks like I have PTSD”. But unlike what many think it is only a severe symptom and not a requirement for PTSD. It is a sign that PTSD is in its more severe stages and needs to be addressed NOW.
    We first talk about what are flashbacks, then what causes them, then when do they appear, then what can we do about them and then how can we use them.

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    8 mins
  • Ep173 - How abusers keep control over us
    Apr 1 2024

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    In this episode we will talk about how abusers keep control over us - even long after we are out of that situation it can still apply. Especially if we were children at the time and we learned this to be “normal”. We need to understand to recognize and unlearn it.
    We first talk about abuse language, then always on edge, then redefining normal, then always assumed guilty, then sabotaging skills, then sugar and pain and then isolation.

    https://www.choosingtherapy.com/narcissistic-manipulation-tactics/
    https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/narcissism-demystified/
    https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/addiction-and-recovery/

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  • Ep172 - Are we bound to be victims or abusers? (Hunters, survivors, healers)
    Mar 17 2024

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    In this episode we will talk about fate - in particular about the fate of those marked by trauma. Are we bound to be victims or abusers? That is a question I am sure many of you have asked when only these 2 fates seem to be available. But there is more.
    We first talk about how it starts, then the roadblocks, then the destructive outcomes, then the productive outcomes and then how it ends.

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    The Quote: Criminal Minds S1E8
    Aaron "Hotch" Hotchner: You were just responding to what you learned, Vincent. When you grow up in an environment like that, an extremely abusive, violent household... it's not surprising that some people grow up to become killers.
    Vincent Perotta: "Some people"?
    Aaron "Hotch" Hotchner: What's that?
    Vincent Perotta: You said "some people grow up to become killers."
    Aaron "Hotch" Hotchner: And some people grow up to catch them.
    https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0550491/quotes/

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  • Ep171 - What does healthy relationship look like?
    Mar 4 2024

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    In this episode we will talk about what a healthy relationship looks like. The perfect relationship depends - of course - on your preferences, life and so much more. That is a science of and on itself. We just focus on a healthy relationship, that has the best chances to last and bring you happiness.
    We first talk about communication, then respect, then shared values and goals, then conflict, then support and then emotional stability

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