• Season 3 Teaser
    Oct 4 2024

    We're back! Maddie and Esbee are gearing up for Season 3 of WTFAID, and in so doing, they're giving some much needed updates to our loyal followers. (Hi mom! Hi mom!) The two share recent updates from both of their lives, introduce the subject matter for each of Season 3's upcoming episodes and introduce a new segment to the airwaves: This Week's Biggest What The Fuck!

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    33 mins
  • Dating
    Jul 3 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing, DATING??? In their final episode of Season 2, Esbee and Maddie go all-in on this ubiquitous subject to which nearly everyone can relate. Maddie is decidedly NOT dating since she's married (but she does have some fun stories to share from her dating era in her early 20's) while Esbee more or less IS dating and therefore ALSO has fun tales to tell. The two hosts reminisce on some of their favorite dating memories, discuss the pros and cons of apps, and generally tell fun and funny stories about their long searches for love.

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    1 hr and 20 mins
  • Drugs & Alcohol Pt. 2
    Jun 21 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing with drugs and alcohol...again!? Esbee and Maddie are tackling this hot-button subject once again, exploring how their stances on drugs and alcohol have changed or stayed the same since their last discussion on the matter. Maddie discusses the shame she felt about missing alcohol during both of her pregnancies and her clarity on all those mixed emotions now, and Esbee delves more into her drinking evolution: from a teen/young adult who didn't really drink, to an adult who eventually did, all the way to a 34-year-old who is now sober. They also talk about their stance on drugs and tackle the age-old debate over whether or not the drinking age in the U.S. should be lowered to 18. It's titillating stuff!

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    1 hr and 8 mins
  • Sexuality
    Jun 7 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing with my sexuality? Glad you asked. Maddie is keeping things pretty straight and narrow, but Esbee is a little more all over the map. The two discuss their own unique sexualities and how they fit in (or don't) to the current culture. Plus, they explore our culture's fascination with sexuality and how we love to put people into neatly defined boxes — even though (more often than not) sexuality doesn't actually fit into a neatly defined box or underneath some clearly laid out label.

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    1 hr and 2 mins
  • Imposter Syndrome
    May 24 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing having so much Imposter Syndrome when it comes to my work life and my creative endeavors? Esbee and Maddie discuss their constant fear of fraudulence and how that fear tends to hinder not only their opportunities for professional growth, but their ability to flourish creatively, too. Funny enough, one major area in which they both feel the imposter syndrome creep in hard-core is in doing this very podcast! The two also tackle why they think they deal with this common mental plague in these specific areas of their lives.

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    1 hr and 2 mins
  • Friendship
    May 10 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing with my friendships? Cherishing them and feeling so, so lucky to have them. In this episode, Maddie and Esbee talk about the genesis and evolution of their own friendship and talk about their adult friendships outside of this nuclear one. Esbee notes that friendships are often the first real, meaningful relationships that people experience outside of their family, and Maddie points out how special it is to have a friendship that spans as much time as theirs does: close to thirty years. Esbee and Maddie regale listeners with stories of their own friendship and talk about issues that sometimes arise and how they navigate those sticking points.

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    1 hr and 4 mins
  • Health
    Apr 26 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing to be healthy? A lot of things, as it turns out. Maddie and Esbee discuss their relationships with their health by focusing on three main categories: physical health, mental health, and social health. With solid, healthy foundations that date back to their childhoods, the two explore how important those foundations have been throughout their 30-something years on Earth, and talk about how they both try to maintain a certain level of health as independent adults.

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    1 hr and 22 mins
  • Hormones
    Apr 12 2024

    What The Fuck Am I Doing, with all these hormones? Be it raging PMS symptoms like sleepless nights and unexplainable sorrow, to extreme postpartum hormones that make all your hair fall out and your boobs shrink down to the size of sand dollars, Maddie and Esbee are talking about their own experiences with these vital bodily messengers. Why is it that men are never described as hormonal? Why are some women drastically more hormonal than others? And why do our hormones seem to make us feel moody and depressed when they decide to flare up? We may not know the answers, but we do know how to ask them and talk about them. Have a listen!

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    1 hr