Welcome to Lifegasm Book I: Marshall's Promise, released in podcast form for your (free!) listening pleasure. 

EXCERPT: In October of 2016 I looked death right in the eyeballs and I woke up to truth. When I hear myself say this, I hear how it might sound arrogant or egotistical. But the moral of this story is not that I am any more or less special than anyone else, quite the opposite, actually.... Additionally, I make no claim to be the first or only human to have experienced such an epiphany. My experience may have been unique from more conventional awakenings in that it was not grounded in any religious tradition or psychedelic enhancement, but I don’t care to belabor the uniqueness or the non-uniqueness of my experience. An awakening is an awakening, and one of the fundamental tenants of truth is that it is never unavailable to us, wherever and however we find ourselves right now in this very moment. No training or prerequisites necessary.

*I Am A Strange Loop* EXCERPT: This saga started two full summers ago, when I saw the writing nook for what it really was and heard Maestro, who had just died, say from behind me, “it’s always been a book.” No, that’s not right. It started in the autumn of 2016, when Marshall left us and cracked the universe open on his way out. Or maybe it started in 2001, when I spent a weekend in Yosemite with my girlfriends and flirted with a strapping young ranger in uniform. Or, come to think of it, let’s start  in 1981 when I went from inside to outside. Or what if it started indulgently at the beginning of time, when energy became matter and zero found its way onto the fulcrum of our miraculous, impossible scale? Right, then, let’s start with the Padgetts. 

*To All Things A Season* EXCERPT: Let me be clear: I was not pretending there wasn’t a loss to be mourned. Transformations come with growing pains. My fifteen-year marriage was ending; this ending was correct and necessary, and it was extremely uncomfortable for (what felt like) unbearably long moments. And yet, just as my heart kept beating after the excruciating discomfort caused by Marshall’s death, I knew my heart would keep beating after the turmoil of divorce.
DISCLAIMER: You will hear a bleep in this episode. That was a deliberate choice on my end. Please know the duration of the bleep is not equivalent to the duration of the words it alleges to hide. That bleep would have been too long to be practical.