**Trigger Warning: This episode builds on themes of trauma and healing discussed in the previous episode. Listener discretion is advised.**

In this powerful continuation of my healing journey through sexual assault, I dive into the complex emotions that I haven't touched on yet. In this episode, I explore the profound feelings of shame and the resentment I harbored towards my parents, especially my father. While I understand he did his best, these emotions were a significant part of my experience, and I felt guilt for feeling them.

I also share my struggle with feeling disconnected from my maternal feminine core, grappling with fears of bringing children into a messed-up world, and the anxiety around raising them and potentially messing them up. Despite these fears, I found healing and reassurance in my male friends, who offered support in ways I hadn't expected.

Additionally, I discuss my battle with high-functioning depression—wearing a smile out in public while, at home, the voices of doubt and despair were winning. In a liberating and powerful moment, I allowed myself to fully embrace the intensity of these emotions without judgment. This self-compassion and acceptance were crucial in creating a safe space for myself, something I had not yet received from men. Join me as I navigate these deep emotional waters and find healing through understanding and self-love.

Resources for Those Struggling:

- **National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN)**: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) - Confidential support and resources for survivors.

- **National Domestic Violence Hotline**: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) - Support for those experiencing domestic violence.

- **Crisis Text Line**: Text HOME to 741741 - Free, 24/7 support via text for those in crisis.

- **RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network)**: [rainn.org](https://www.rainn.org/) - Information and resources for survivors of sexual assault.

- **Pandora's Project**: [pandys.org](https://pandys.org/) - Support and resources for survivors of sexual violence.

- **The Joyful Heart Foundation**: [joyfulheartfoundation.org](https://www.joyfulheartfoundation.org/) - Resources for healing and recovery.

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