The Dawn of My Eternal Spiritual Body in the Water. more siddha-deha diya, Nitai-pashe rakhe giya, ei dehera kare sarva-nasha ishat vikashi punah, dekhaya nija rupa-guna, citta hari laya Nitai-pasha Sri maudeshwari Yamuna in Nitya Ekachakra dham is my life and soul. She awards me my siddha deha, my spiritual form when I go into deep meditation and take bath, enter into maudeshwari Yamuna. As I am entering the divine waters of maudeshwari Yamuna, my feet are turning spiritual. I can see as I am entering, gradually the water is rising from my feet to my knees, thighs, waist, my stomach, chest, my neck and eventually my face. This is really funny, I feel like I am transforming, there is a metamorphosis going on, Completely different person. I am feeling that as my neck is going inside the water, I feel my breath, my divine breath in the spiritual form and I feel my voice is coming, my voice in my spiritual form is coming. I have a female dasi form in the Ekachakra’s Nityalila. Ankle bells have come on my feet, I feel, I want to immerse my head inside the water fully so that no part of my mundane body remains and only my spiritual form emerges. I want, I am moving my both hands like swimming inside. When I am inside the water and I am staying inside the water in that divine dip, I am not coming out. I am like playing with both my hands with maudeshwari Yamuna’s divine water, and I feel my body has become completely, completely spiritual, Completely, completely. Now I have goose bumps, my hairs standing on end all over the body even in this material world. Imagine the spiritual form. This is the power of maudeshwari Yamuna. Any object in the Nityalila, when we touch that object, they are like Paras-mani or Chinta-mani. When we touch that object, we become gold. Gold means not a statue but our spiritual form. We become transcendental, spiritual just like them. That is why Ekachakra dhyan is the most munificent, most benevolent, most magnanimous, most all forgiving, most offense less, most liberal practice for Harinam ruci because instantly when we meditate on Ekachakra’s associates whether they are in Shanta-rasa, Dasya-rasa, Sakhya-rasa, Vatsalya-rasa or Madhurya-rasa. They have brought us our spiritual form. Go through the door which is open please. Go to Golok Vrindavan, we want to attain Vrindavan, Vraja of Radha Krishna. We want to attain Navadvipa of Gaura-sundar but we go through the door which is always open that is Ekachakra. Ekachakra is the door into. Shrila Bhakti Siddhanta Saraswati Thakura Prabhupada said that in ‘Chaitanya Bhagavat’ commentary. He said, “Unless you enter into the Maha-audarya, through the Maha-audarya partition prakoshta of Goloka Vrindavan, you cannot enter the Madhurya prakoshta of Vraja lila of Radha-Krishna that is why it is said, “heno Nityananda bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai”. This one line I keep on explaining whole my life but still I find new meanings for this. So, I am just offending the water in the Yamuna in my spiritual form. Now I have already got my spiritual form, I have already got it and I feel immersed in it. Oh! I feel like crying, I won’t cry, I won’t cry, I won’t cry. This microphone won’t take my crying unfortunately. So, I can feel that my voice is coming from my spiritual form. I don’t know what’s happening. Yeah! I just want to remain inside the water. I remember even in this life when I was in Radha kund, I used to take bath on Bagula Ashtami time and off course Radha kunda and Vraja there are consideration of offenses but still because I was Nitai Bhakta, I could feel, I would tell our devotees let close our nose and dive into the water and let’s see who stays longer because I felt the tinkling, the kindling of my spiritual form inside the water but in Ekachakra now I can reside there manasikally, mentally forever, forever. I am still inside the water; all my head is inside. I don’t know how I am able to control my breadth for so long, but my spiritual form is developing. It has already fully bloomed, developed. Wow! I wish it stays this way. Yeah! I can feel the voices of the other dasis. Wow! I mean the once you get spiritual ears only then you can hear your voices. I feel that my voice is also has become like that. Wow! Some may be criticise me for recording such intimate videos, but it is Ekachakra my dear brothers and sisters. Even if you ridicule me, criticise me as being Shajiya, Ekachakra Dham is Sahaja. I am not revealing, and I am not speaking about my form in Vraja Dham. Ekachakra is the most accessible. Prabhupada said those who chant even ‘Nitai Gaura Radhe Shyam’ which is not a bonafide mantra but still they are making rapid symptoms of love only because the Nitai is there. So, Nitai is so liberal, Ekachakra is so liberal. Even if you think I am a Sahajiya still this is real love because that’s what Prabhupada said, “even Sahajiyas experience real love”. Sahaja, sahaja, “Ekachakra ...
