Last week I was chatting with the hosts of ‘Fat & Fucked’ and they asked me about how I’d got ‘here’, and what led me to starting a fat liberation podcast.

The truth is that a lot of moments that led here…

* Being fat my whole life

* Losing a parent as a teen

* Losing myself amongst the waves of grief

* Feeling even less like myself when I spent pockets of time existing in a smaller body

* Working in the fitness industry, and starting my online business

* Leaving the toxic and cult like business coaching bubble

* The book Playing Big by Tara Mohr, and her guided visualisation

* Ditching dieting, and finding intuitive eating

Many of these moments indirectly led me to this chapter of my life, and it’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that less than a decade ago I had such different beliefs about my body.

There were times when I was in extreme diet phases, I’d tangle myself up in maths, meticulously detailing what I’d eaten, and I’d think “Is this actually even worth it??!!”

*Spoiler Alert* — No, it was absolutely not worth it!

(But that’s an episode for another time…)

This bonus episode is a reflection on the experience of starting a business whilst in the depths of diet culture, exiting a space that intersects with diet culture, and how I started to unravel, unlearn and find myself again.

They say if you want to learn who you are, start a business… and what a wild fucking ride it has been to discover who I truly am.

Enjoy!

P.s don’t forget that I’ll be taking a break from publishing regular episodes between Dec 17th and January 13th, but you will continue to receive additional content in December here on Substack!