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If Not for You

By: Georgie Lucas
Narrated by: Mariam Abu-Hejleh
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Summary

If I were to look closely at the jagged edges of my fragmented heart, I'm sure I'd see that some spaces now shine with gold. And that is what he left for me.

On the 17th November 2019, Grey Atticus Fox was born, nine weeks early, to Georgie and Mike in a Kent hospital. Heart-wrenching, cathartic, life-affirming, this is her account of the 21 days they had together and its aftermath—the search to make sense of unimaginable loss. It bears witness to both the confusion and the clarity that accompany great pain, and stands as a testament to empathy, care and humanity when life is at its hardest.

He was looked after by strangers who became family, and he saw more kindness, more love, in twenty-one days than some might see in a lifetime. For his brief moments in this world, he experienced all of the very best things it can offer.

Georgie's spare, intimate and at times surprisingly comic writing offers an extraordinary message of hope. If Not for You is about the redeeming power of love, even in our darkest hour.

©2022 Georgie Lucas (P)2022 Hachette Audio UK
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Gray If not for you

Pathos heartache loss bravery and Angels
A story of life that could never be and a decision to let go. Just kept me listening.
To Gray hopefully twinkling in the nite sky.
To our awesome NHS nurses doctors and staff.

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Beautiful!

A truly wonderful and courageous insight into the world of a tiny baby and his all too short journey. Simply a gem - I couldn't put it down and, although I cried buckets, it also made me smile at the pure brilliance of the compassionate and thoughtful writing. RIP Grey x

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Beautifully written

I didn’t know what to expect when I started listening - such a difficult thing for someone to write about. However, this was amazing from start to finish. So beautifully and sensitively written. I highly recommend this.

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An absolute masterpiece

I implore anyone and everyone to read If Not For You. This book has had the most profound impact on me and Grey's story is told so beautifully, there is no way to do justice to Georgie's immense talent as a writer. How brave of you to share this story with us Georgie and what a gift you have given us and Grey in doing so.

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simply incredible. For Grey - only love x

There are no words that could express my love for this book. A tribute to an incredible little boy, his incredible family and the power of love. It cuddled me in its warmth, it lifted me with its humour, it broke me with its purity and reality. Like meeting Grey did....its words have changed me forever. I too can feel some gold in my heart thanks to you. Georgie it is simply beautiful and a celebration of the person that you are. This book will help so many as they too navigate their Goat Path.

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A very sad read

I did enjoy listening to this audible. However, it was a very sad read. Lots of tears as I listened but it did make me reflect on my life, my experiences, friendships and my kindness and generosity towards others.

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