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Before My Actual Heart Breaks

By: Tish Delaney
Narrated by: Saoirse-Monica Jackson
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Summary

I’m not yours and you’re not mine. That’s what I say to his dreaming face as I watch the shadows of his dark eyelashes dance by the light of a Tilley lamp. It’s not the first lie I’ve told myself.

When I was 16, I wanted to fly. I was going to take off like an angel from heaven and leave the muck and madness of Northern Ireland behind as I struck out across the west coast of Donegal, heading straight for America.

Nothing but the Land of Happy Ever After would do for me. It was him I blamed for clipping my wings. I fashioned a cage out of self-pity then and slipped it over my head like a boned corset to hold myself together and to lock him out.

But hate cannot bind two people to each other for 25 years, no matter how many dark skies have to be weathered. Only love can do that.

It’s the first truth I’ve told myself.

©2020 Tish Delaney (P)2020 Penguin Audio
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Story telling at its best.

This book touched my heartstrings, it made me laugh and cry, sometimes it was so over whelming and sad I had to stop listening. The wonderful narration added to the joy of this book, it was filled with nostalgia of another era. A must read.

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Worth a listen

Enjoyed it especially the accent which helps drift into the story😊
Very true to the times written about.

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A lovely book.

To hear Tish Delaney's wonderful tale of a recently bygone Ireland, told in the authentic accent of the North by Derry Girl Saoirse-Monica Jackson is a doubling of the pleasure of simply reading it. By turns hilarious and tragic, it is never less than humane in its depiction of a dark time in the history of our countries. Seen from a Catholic perspective, Delaney manages to keep blame at bay by focusing on the senseless tragedies suffered by all sides of the conflict. At the same time she introduces the reader to a glowing cast of beautifully drawn individuals in a love story which sometimes blatantly refers back to Austen. It is a warm and witty letter from the heart and deserves to be widely read.

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Superb!

An absolutely superb book perfectly narrated. My first by this author and I loved it.

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Captivated until the very last word.

What a debut. One of the best books I have read and I did not want it to end. Tish Delaney I salute you.

Before My Actual Heart Breaks Is a tender story that had me captured from the first paragraph. I became completely absorbed in it, feeling as if I were living it right alongside the characters!

It made me cry, it made me laugh out loud and even shocked me at times me with it’s honest portrayal of family life during the ‘troubles’ in Northern Ireland.

Read the book and then listened to the Audiobook and have to admit that the broad Derry accent of Saoirse- Monica Jackson had me captivated even further. A must read for all book clubs.
Next one please Tish.

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Brilliant

Really enjoyed this book, and this author.
Great narrator - the only thing that bothered me were a few random sentences that had been filled in with a different voice which was a bit jarring when fully engrossed in the story.

I love the characters TD creates and the humour within the heartbreak

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a brilliant story

the language was so poetic and descriptive..the back ground history made the whole book memorable and easily readable. loved it to bits

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Wonderful

I absolutely loved this story. The characters were so raw and felt so real to me. A complicated love story that needn’t have been if they had exercised the art of communication ❤️.

The narration was absolutely perfect and added so much emotion.

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Beautifully written book

At first I thought the narrator would annoy me...I grew to love her voice and I adored the characters. When the book finished I was upset and missed the characters.
Is the lock down getting to me!
First time reading this author, I’ll certainly look out for more of her work 😉

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Riveting

Great characters and superb humour amongst the horror.
I loved this book from start to finish.

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